"If u want to help others, help urself first"
-No1Special-
Mungkin ramai yang tertanya2 knapa sya wat blog nih. Sejujurnya sya sendiri x thu tp mungkin jauh disudut hati sya, sya cbe mencari tempat ntk 'lepas geram'~ hek3~
Ntah lah, xdpt dinafikan hidup nih bkan sng, kte just need to fight and survive in any way. ^_^' Tpi~
ntah nape situasi yang melanda diri nih wat mase skrg...err... rasa cm fight pon xde guna... x thu lah mungkin x serasi ngan jiwa kot...
Usually in high school sya boleh struggle cam org gler ntk dpt result terbaik (walaupun xlah baik sgt pon sbnrnya) tpi sya just pelik napa diri sya yang kuat struggle nk capai apa saja impian tuh dah hilang? kalau nk diikutkn berdasarkan situasi skrg nih, kalau gagal in this coming exam, i might get kicked out of here in no time but... it sounds more important thn my study in SPM. still, i wonder why i just ignore that type of important thing and just throw everything away. am i try to run from the difficulties i faced here? or is it bcoz this is not what i wanted all of this yer?
sya just berminat ntk study psychology or nk jd Medical Assistant... but... living here in Matrikulasi Kedah made me think again 'apasal aq msuk sini hah?'. mngkn ada yg trnya2 nape sya ckp cmtuh.
maybe sbb kbnykkn yg dtg matrik nih cma fokus nk jdi doktor or engineer or apa2 sjalah kerja yg besar2...
sya just nk something yg simple... basicly, what i want is a life where i can survive my own without depending on others, a life where i wnt to work the type of work i want (with my own effort of course), a life where im capable of helping others, a life where i have a loving n nurturing husband along with my own kidz~ that's all... is it that complicated? i wonder...
Sya ska study abt people n observe their personality and reaction over any situation. 4 my friends maybe ramai yg x thu tp ya, saya ska observe, study n then try my best to help them in any situation.
it's the same as the character in my recent novel, Nada. ^_^
anyway, this probably my first post to this 'i wonder who wants to read blog' hek3
hmmm~ whtvr, just leave ur comment.
im open to any type of criticism ~
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